The biggest problem I had when I became a Christian was sexual addition. Even though I knew sex outside of marriage was wrong, I had a habit of having sex with every guy I got involved with. Within a year of giving my life to Christ, I got pregnant. Because I had already had two abortions and knew that ending my pregnancy meant I would be killing my unborn child, I decided I would keep my baby no matter what. The baby’s father and I got married and had two more children in the first few years of our marriage.

If you are not used to being disciplined, being a Christian can be difficult and sometimes unpleasant. In Proverbs, it says that God disciplines us because he loves us. “My son, despise not the chastening of the LORD; neither be weary of his correction; for whom the LORD loveth he correcteth; even as a father the son in whom he delighteth (Proverbs 3:11-12). The Hebrew word translated correction, towkachath (to – kakh´ – ath) is derived from the word yakach (yaw – kahh´) which means to be right (3198). These two words have the connotation of giving proof or evidence in order to decide a case (8433).

While I was married, no one suspected that I had a problem with sex. On the surface, everything appeared to be normal. It wasn’t until my marriage failed that I was confronted with the truth, being cut off from my source of sex made me very anxious. Although I knew I could survive for a period of time, the thought of never having sex again was too much for me to handle. What I realize now, after being divorced for 14 years, is that my desire for sex may never go away, but I do not have to fulfill it.

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